I hadn't gotten my hair done since early September, before he left. Part of the reason was my hairdresser happens to be a very good family friend. In fact her daughter was our flower girl in our wedding. I dreaded going in there, not because I didn't want to see her, but because I knew I was going to be emotional. I knew she "knew" what was going on. She had sent me a message telling me I was in her prayers, but messaging and seeing are two totally different things.
So yesterday was my appointment. I sat in the waiting area which is closed off from the salon. I decided to check my email on my phone while waiting. I received the most beautiful email from my brother in law(I have left out actual names to protect the innocent):
H,
One of the things that I have been thinking about from D’s prayer the other night, was the thought of you being in a place, at times, in darkness and despair but that God is light and that God’s light is where you want to be, as we all do. I’m not going to pretend that it is always possible to be in the light because of our human nature to respond to things that are thrown on our plates that take us down. When our Spirits, Faith, Trust in our lives are in the right place, God’s light is always in place for us to walk in to.
As I was sharing with D the other night, I made mention of this portion of his prayer. The thought that ran through my mind is the analogy of a lighthouse. The light is obviously God, but as the light circles and leaves us a bit (even though we are not completely shut out because we can still follow it), circumstances cause us to stumble but we know that if we stand firm on our Faith and be patient, we will soon be in the full light again because we know it is coming around again.
S(my nephew) is a very sensitive kid. C(my sister) and I were talking with him the other night and he was very emotional about the issue with your family. It occurred to me that his emotional state is only a very small fraction of what your girls are experiencing and feeling. My (our) support is with you fully as you provide “the rock” for your girls. You have our pledge to provide any kind of additional stability to you and your family.
H, you are in a very good place Spiritually. I know you will come out of this as a changed person and will be a “Rock” for your children and many others. Never lose sight of the “Light” as there is no better place to be.
Have a great day!
Probably NOT the best time to read those loving words. I was sitting in the waiting area sobbing. The receptionist tried to ignore me while I tried to bury myself in my purse, trying to look like there was something very important for me to do in that black bag. I collected myself just in time to have L(my hairdresser) walk around the corner with "the eyes". The eyes that I get all the time when I go through this process. They are compassionate, sorrowful, what can I do, eyes. We hugged and the sobs came back. She says she is not a therapist, but yesterday she was. She lovingly held me, talked to me, looked me in the eye, and cared for me. Oh and she did my hair and eyebrows. She nurtured me.
So in that hour that I spent with her, in the salon, God touched me twice. Once with an eloquent letter from my brother in law and again with a friend who truly cares about and loves me. These are the sort of things that tell me that He is there providing me with loving people and hands to take care of me. I will be ok. Thank you God for providing me with everything I need to weather this storm.
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