I'm sort of a big deal

Not really. But for the last week, this is the way I've felt. If ever a blog has been so aptly named, this week, Her Head in the Clouds is EXACTLY what I have been. I am in love...with my life. I am happy and content. Even the summer cold from hell cannot take me down.

I closed on my new house last Thursday, July 7. I spent the next few days arranging, rearranging and organizing this special place until everything felt just right. I used to have a chair in the old house that was my sanctuary from life. This entire house feels that way. I miss my old neighbors being so close, but I also know they are only a 5 minute or less drive away if I need them.

Some of the things I love about this house:
The front porch...I have had my coffee out there every single morning.
The smaller size
The window above my kitchen sink
My new fridge
Having the big t.v. in my living room and no t.v. in my bedroom
Being able to make every. single. decision. myself.

While everything is in it's final place, I cannot handle the white walls. Every single wall in this house is white. Stark white! So, over the next year I will be transforming the inside of this house into a beautiful collection of colors that will make my heart even more happy.

The icing on the cake was Thursday night when my dad embraced me and told me how proud he is of me. I LOVE my life.

Opening my heart

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

I made a conscious decision to allow my heart to open up to someone. I could have closed myself off and not done it. I could have decided I didn't want to be hurt. I could have let fear keep me from feeling, but I didn't. I threw all reason aside and opened it up. It felt good to feel again. To be touched physically and also emotionally. It felt good to listen to music that spoke to the feelings that I was having. By opening up my heart, I healed just a little bit more. This person helped me feel beautiful and relevant again. He was sent to me for this purpose. I truly believe that it was mutual healing that we did together.

So now this phase, whatever this was, is over. It makes me sad, but I am also thankful that I got to experience it. That sounds so cliche, but it's the truth. I never imagined that he and I would be joined together on this journey. I want to thank him for it, for helping me heal and I probably will sometime when the sadness has lessened. For now I will just know that I am capable of having feelings and get ready for the next adventure and people who are coming into my life.