Different

It hit me just now as I was singing Coryn to sleep just how very different her life will be growing up than mine was. I'm not really sure why it just hit me so strongly, maybe the reality of it is finally sinking in. This process is never ending it seems. I was singing a song about Mommies and Daddies and it just seemed so unfair to me that she is my one child who will never remember a time when she had a "normal" family. She definitely has two parents that love her but those two parents are very much living separate lives. Lives that are going in very different paths. She will never see her parents embrace, kiss, hug or glance lovingly at each other. She will never ride in a car to a soccer game, dance recital, choir concert with both of her parents. She will never open gifts on Christmas morning with her entire family present. These things make me so sad for her. I never realized growing up what a blessing it was to have both parents always there. I took it for granted. I'm sure my parents had their rough patches but they stuck it out and I'm so very grateful that I never had to watch my parents move on. I am so thankful that they loved me and each other enough to work it out. I hope that just because it is different, it is still a most awesome life. That I don't screw this part of it up more.